2006年5月28日

世界杯效應

昨天,人生第一次到麥花臣踢波…感覺,再沒有中六中七時的衝勁。但求不會給看台上的旺角阿叔倒用玻璃鐏擲中,平安無事回到家中,已算萬幸。

今晚,再一次去踢波。回想上一次連續兩天也踢波,應該是中六的時候了。數一數手指,六年了。時間過得真快,自己的體能下降得更快。〔更別說現在的一個大肚腩了〕

奇怪地,今晚感覺狀態不俗,總算能多跑兩步,是否意味自己的體能已漸漸回升呢?希望繼續努力吧。世界杯臨近,氣氛漸漸明朗化,應該很快會變成全城熱話,並將「巴士阿叔」的風頭搶過去。

英格蘭呀,加油呀!我會全力支持你的!

2006年5月25日

Nokia N80

Woo......

Eventually, I bought a new mobile. Keep on considering the market for almost 4 months, reject numerous models, waiting and waiting...lastly, "my one" comes.

Nokia N80 !!!

$5280, kill me. Anyway, I still alive. Hahahahahahaha......

2006年5月21日

Night

It’s my great honor, to “force” (but politely speaking, “invite”) 2 unexpectable guesses to present in a simple gathering. Ladies and gentlemen, “N” and “D”.

Not easy, I really mean so. “N” was always kidnapped by alien, and still provides his completed heart in his own career, time is just a luxury good for him, and last night, I paid ZERO to buy his time, and successfully made the transaction deal, really a great job, isn’t it?

“D” was a speedy guy, he run so fast. People may misunderstand that he always comes so late, even not attends. But I can tell all you guys, some facts. Fact is, he is (was) not late, but already GONE. Last night, I successfully “STAY” this speedy handsome.

Anyway, still had fun.

According to “A”, and I totally agree, “Love is not the only component of life, especially in this moment.” No doubt, however, the main problem is, no matter what component contains a heavier weight in your life time, vexations still occurred. You may select your basket of components, but it doesn’t mean you have a right to avoid vexations.

Still a long way to go. A process, right?

Good night, my dearest ms. LONG ISLAND.

2006年5月16日

The Great Wall

Basically, I plan to seek a new job to re-develop my career path in a new environment, and "PLAN" to activate it within May, or early June. Of course, many reasons drive me to do so, some personal, and some external. I progress my plan, make it all on trend, special concern with every elements...However, seems the condition new is not quite smooth.

One week ago, I was quite sure that my working place should be changed, this thought still in my mind right now. But some differs come out.

On my working desk, there are full of files, paper works and stuff which I need to follow up. They just like a wall, to build themselves up and all around me to make me isolate with outside world. It gonna makes me carzy.

Time is running short. How can I concentrate in my own real thought? Poor Javier. However, I good sign is...
WORKS TAKE OVER ME, BUT NOT SENSIBILITY.

A lovely great news inside my "Great Wall". Isn't it???

2006年5月13日

A new start

One day, when I close my eyes, and fall into my memory, I smile. Then I know, I take over all in the past and all gone.

One day, when I close my eyes, and fall into my memory, it doesn't make me cry. Then I know, I am recovering and progressing in my route.

One day, when I close my eyes, and fall into my memory, I find all still belong to me. Then I know, I earn my eventually victory back.

But last night, when I close my eyes, I won't let myself fall into my memory, since I know if I do so, I sink.

Extraordinarily, today, when I close my eyes, I found no force to make me fall, or make me sink. There is a point of no return (~_~), but I don't want to make all those reutrn right now. I keep in moving, free my mind, keep going.

Where will I arrive? When will I stop? What will I take at last? God knows. But at least, I am not alone in my journey.

Here I go, please, check me out.

2006年4月3日

睡不了夜

原本想平靜一點過生活,淡淡的看下去;但為什麼,心又痛了起來?

難道,我又做錯了什麼?這種日子,真的很難過。我究竟做錯了什麼,要我受這樣的痛苦?!

我真的…倒下了。

2006年3月15日

三月中的閒語

在這個多星期的日子裡,發生過很多事情,思想過很多事情,忘記過很多事情,到頭來,什麼也像沒發生過、沒思想過、沒忘記過一樣。痛了,醉了,苦了,最終仍是要清醒過來。一個又一個重複的階段,很難受,卻麻木起來。苦日子很可貴,因為「它」總能映襯和諧的美。基於這個原因,忽地裡,決意再次在日記上下下功夫,好好留住這一段時空,總有一天,應該會有用的。

我朋友不算多,但能做朋友的,我相信〔我個人相信吧〕都總能交心。人總不能每一刻處於頂峰,下滑的時候,總需要戰友。就算一個人對自己有多大的自信,都不能抹殺心靈沉淪的機會。猶幸地,我擁有關心自己的人。這份珍藏,在心神沉痛至極的時候,總帶點點幫助。

我的日子,都在等待中渡過。原以為渡過了,結果,今天的我,卻仍在等待。至於最後等待到的是什麼林羅萬象,我已無能暇想,腦袋,很想停下來。轉動了數載的小巧,也應該小休一會了。

我是言不由衷嘛?答案只有一個。

2006年3月4日

還我

我不是未曾預計過這一天的出現,只是,最能接受的日子已經過去了,絕不是現在。

或許我真的走得太前,忘記了回頭。路上,早已看不見你的影蹤,我只可以停下來,等你慢慢的走上來與我相遇,只要你仍想一小步一小步的走下去。要是你已停了下來,我大可走回頭路,尋找失處。最怕,你已跳到異路,沒有半點聲響,把我獨個人在那路中心,留得徹徹底底。

這口氣,真呼不出來。快把我鬱悶死了。

2006年1月26日

偶然

偶然間,看看自己的網站…

今天,心情差透了。因為自己,令自己不高興,不快樂,這種感覺,毫不好受。

結果,我下了一個決定。