恆河沙數的奇想

已多久沒寫日記了？

今天心情不太怎樣的，完全無法形容。本該高興，是因為工作稱心，果效比預期中好；但隱隱感到內心深處，有點難以釋懷。抽著；抽著似的。

中午在巴士上，看到一對小情人。倆口子依依似的，應該走在一起好一段時日吧。伊人亮著清嘉的雙眸，壞頭壞腦的凝神望著身旁的小伙子，牙牙耳語了一句︰「什麼是愛？」

小伙子只是笑了一口，便算了。

那我自己又認為，什麼是愛呢？如果理想中的「愛」，我只想到一首最喜歡的歌︰YOU NEEDED ME！

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I cried a tear, you wiped it dry.
I was confused, you cleared my mind.
I sold my soul, you bought it back for me,
And held me up and give me dignity.
Somehow you needed me.

You gave me strenght, to stand alone again.
To face the world out on my own again.
You put me high, upon a pedestal.
So high that I can almost see, eternity.
You needed me, you needed me.

And I can’t believe it’s you. I can’t believe it’s true.
I needed you and you were there.
And I’ll never leave. Why should I’d be a fool .
cause I’ve fin’lly found someone who really cares.

You held my hand. when it was cold.
When I was lost, you took me home.
You gave me hope, when I was at the end.
And turned my lies, back into truth again.
You even called me friend.

You gave me strength to stand alone again.
To face the world, out on my own again.
You put me high upon a pedestal.
So high that I can almost see eternity.
You needed me, you needed me.
You needed me, you needed me.
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因為需要愛，所以去愛。很簡單，卻帶來塵世間最複雜的煩惱。小倆口子要是苦心思量愛在一起的原因，都總會偏離理想。歌辭可以很動聽，但只是舒懷的工具，莫不是什麼理想空想。

是我又在計較，鑽進黑洞裡去？還是如歌聲溢樑，「i needed you, and you were there」？

為什麼凡有一副如斯的腦袋？